February 1st is when it all started, well not really but it’s when we found out.
I had been feeling off all morning. I didn’t want the Starbucks hubs got me for breakfast.
Nor did I exhale the pumpkin bread like I usually do. Something was off.
That afternoon, I was playing with AG on the couch. She was jumping around and landed right on my chest. OUCH! Boy did it hurt. Immediately I analyzed that symptom. I know, good and well pregnancy and period symptoms aren’t much different in the beginning. But it still got my wheels spinning. I started thinking back to when my cycle should have started and I honestly did know when it was supposed to come. Usually around the beginning of the month. I figured it was on its way.
Later that day, there had been a few more symptoms that made me think twice. So later that evening when we headed to Target as a family, I knew I needed to grab a test. I needed to make sure. As soon as I got home, I took it. Within no time the results were as clear as day. I was indeed pregnant. Shocked doesn’t even begin to explain how I was feeling.
I ran downstairs to show hubs. He laughed, thought I was joking and then shared my feeling of shock once the news settled in. We took AG for a walk and talked about it. We were scared, excited, nervous along with many other emotions. It was all surreal. This little one was not planned. We weren’t trying at all. We weren’t going to start until this summer. I think the one thing that we were the most surprised with was that we got pregnant without trying. After all we went through for AG we just didn’t think it would/ could happen like this.
We decided to share the news with close friends and family, our support system. They all shared our shock and excitement. Over the last few months, they have all been so thoughtful, this little one is so blessed to be surrounded by such love. We’ve received some of the sweetest cards, precious gifts, but most of all a tremendous amount of support.
Today, I am just over 14 weeks pregnant. The first trimester has come and gone. My fears of miscarriage weren’t as strong as they were the last few times around. I don’t know if it was because we already had one baby and full term pregnancy, because I knew it was all out of my control or because I spend my days chasing after a toddler, which doesn’t’ leave much room for over analyzing like I did before. It is not like the fear wasn’t there but it just didn’t consume me like it’s done in the past.
So, on January 15th, when I posted about baby #2, I had no idea what God had in store for us. This may have come earlier than what was in our plan but it was definitely in His plan. I couldn’t be more excited about having another baby, especially giving AG a sibling. I feel extremely blessed and grateful.
Lastly, I want to say that I know this news can be hard news for someone else who is struggling have a baby. To all of my readers who are on your own journey to parenthood, please know you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.