You’re gonna miss this

You’re gonna miss this

You’re gonna want this back

You’re gonna wish these days hadn’t gone by so fast

These are the good times

So take a good look around

You may not know it now

But you’re gonna miss this

Oh Trace Adkins, you hit the nail on the head with this one. It’s one of my all time favorites and as a mom, it goes straight to my heart. Happy belated Mother’s Day to all the wonderful mamas out there. I was looking back through pictures last night and couldn’t help but wonder how I’ve already been a mom for almost 4 years.

I remember dreaming of these days.

I remember praying for that positive test.

I remember begging God to let me carry my babies to term.

I remember the road to getting them in my arms.

It seems like yesterday, yet it started almost 6 years ago.

It was a long one, it was a hard one but it was one I’d travel again in a heartbeat to have these two in my arms.

Yesterday (Mother’s Day) was filled with littles up all hours of the night, skipped naps, more tears than I can even count and lots of deep breaths. But, yesterday was the perfect representation of what motherhood means to me.

Motherhood is messy and yesterday was one of those days. In those fussy moments, there were snuggles. Chubby cheeks resting on shoulders. Laps were full, arms were wrapped around little bodies. Tears were wiped and smiles came out every now and then. I love you’s and happy mother’s day was sung through the house in the non fussy moments. While it may have not been the typical pampering, relaxing mother’s day that many moms hope for, I wouldn’t change a thing. I dreamed of these moments, whether good or not so great. I have two healthy, happy littles and that is something I will never take for granted. These years are going by too fast and I already miss those little babies you see above. Pretty soon, I won’t be able to hold  both of them at the same time and soon after that, they’ll be taller than me. I am going to miss these years, tough days and all.

Right now, there is no where else I’d rather be. No one else I’d rather spend my days with. No other job I’d rather have. It may be messy at times but the beauty of it all far outweighs all of the messy moments.